for this we were made

June 10, 2006

"That's why women were created," she said in her address, "To complete man."

It was a bridal shower, so I understand why she said this. After all, did not God make Adam and then Eve? Did not Solomon say that he who finds a wife finds a "good thing"?

But I also do not understand why she said this, why she–a woman in ministry who loves the Lord–would say and believe that a woman's primary God-given task is something unatainable for many. I don't understand why glorifying God through marriage was not instead mentioned.

If she were right, how could I worship my Lord? How could I make a difference for the Kingdom?

solitude

May 1, 2006

And sometimes it hits me that I'm really alone. Though I have an amazing Savior, caring parents, and great acquaintances through church and school, there's a part of my heart that just aches for companionship. Every now and then I get this desperate thought: will I be alone forever? Am I not going to be blessed with children? Because though it's ok if I'm not, at the moments of realization, it's like I can't breathe.